So...it's almost 1:00 in the morning and I'm still not in bed. First is because I don't want to. Secondly...well....I have a crap load of work to do.
So I'm terribly sorry that I haven't updated in....months. A lot of stuff has been going on.

The good thing is, I'm not depressed like I was anymore. Actually, I've been that way for a while now. I think my emotional rollercoaster is put at rest. And I hope it's put at rest for good. Right now, I'm living one day at a time.

Last night was rough for me. I got into another fight with my mother. It got really nasty...I ended up sitting on the porch from midnight till 2 before going to bed. I don't know if it's me, but sometimes I wish I can open up to my mother about my feelings. Yet being my hardened self, I put up a huge wall and don't want my feelings to show. In all honesty, though...I'm not particularly fond of sharing how I feel. Usually, I keep silent.
Sometimes I look at the good mother-daughter relationships around me. I get so jealous. It's like they are perfect. Whereas my mother and I...I dont know. We aren't that close like a mother and daughter should be...
I just hope I can remedy that one day...

So I started Junior year about three and a half weeks ago. So far...its MURDERING me!!! Junior year fucking SUCKS! Im taking a couple APs...god they are so hard. X_X And I have tons of work to do. Not to mention SAT's and college apps *sigh*

One day at a time I guess....
<3 you guys
~Baited~